It Happened.

Yesterday at work it started....

Holiday Season.

Working at Dentist Office we get lots of gifts sent to us to thank us for referrals and what's the best thing to send to a Dentist Office?

Oh thats right, sweets. 

Cake, cookies, chocolate, candy, crack.

Yes please send 12 dozen homemade cookies to our office of 3 PEOPLE. 

I also work up front, so I sit and stare at it all day. 

I have long had an issue of over eating, and while I have never let it get to an extreme point, I walk a very fine fine line. 

Personally for me a serving size is the box, or carton. Not 1. Duh. 

This Saturday is my first weigh in for my Biggest Loser Challenge. So technically this week doesn't count.

So why did I start this week, and I why did I not eat all of those cookies and that loaf of banana bread that looked perfectly moist and probably has banana chunks throughout it, with hot melted butter on top?

Because I know the first three weeks are the hardest, so why not get a jump start. 

Already this week I have had Twizzlers, Pizza, french fries, Red Velvet Cake Ice Cream and a soda womp womp. 

That is worse than I have been in awhile. 

I get in the mind set before I start a challenge that I need to say good bye to all the foods I love.
Then I binge, like big time.

Food is such a mind game. 

I kept telling myself yesterday 

"If I wait until 3 I can eat a cookie, but if I wait til 4 I can eat two"

Why am I rewarding myself for not eating snack, BY EATING SNACKS. 

Why am I rewarding myself with food at all. 

It never makes me feel good, which rewards are supposed to do. I always feel guilty after, and feel like a failure. 

I also tend to let one bite of bad food ruin my whole day. 

The whole "Well my diet today is shot so I might as well finish the entire cake" theory

That's my favorite theory, and also my least favorite.
I know there is a bazillion books out there on eating habits, such as Mindless Eating which I have wanted to read since college, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to dive into that.

Tiffany over at The Fit Train is having a Fit 4 Christmas Challenge that I climbed aboard on (see what I did there).

I'm pretty sure I'm going to try some Advocare products during this challenge and I promise I will be upfront and honest about all of them. I'm also thinking about becoming a distributor so I can get the discount so if you want to order from me let me know... That is probably the last time I will say that PROMISE!

On Monday's I will tell you my weight from the weigh-in's on Saturday and I will tell you how I'm feeling. Whats working and whats not. I also promise to add any good and healthy recipes to my recipe tab up top (don't bother looking now there's nada!).

You can follow me on Instagram where I post a lot of sweaty pictures and pictures of me crying over cake. womp womp.

If you are looking to send some extra cheer to someone this holiday season, or looking to make a new blogging buddy you can join JustJacq's Post Exchange. Sign ups are going on right now.
This is the second time I have done it and I got to meet the wonderful Kaara. She has an Etsy site with amazing pieces that are extremely reasonably priced. She informed me that she has kept her love for Billy (Bill Clinton) in the closet for too long and that because of me she is waving her love flag high! She recently did a huge overhaul in her AMAZINGLY LARGE closet and if I lived closer I would have been there like a little circus monkey collecting all the discards.
I love me some hand-me-downs.... You hear me Kaara... you have my address!!
Go show her some love and sign up for Post Exchange, you may be lucky enough to get yours truly and let me tell you I am in the crafty mood lately!

Tomorrow is Halloween, and it's probably going to get rained out... yay New England....