Mabel Mabel Set the Table.

Today is Mabel's 4th birthday and I am in semi melt down mode. 

My little baby girl is growing up and I can't even stop it. 

I had the best pregnancy with her. I was sick but it wasn't unbearable. I was active and I barely gained. I had  heartburn but nothing a few tums couldn't fix. 

Then there was that whole anemia thing. 

The doctor told me I could take iron pills or have iron shots. I hate shots sooo I said I would take the pills. 

Which I took once and felt like I was dying so I continued to pretend I was taking them. 

Then when the time finally came, after two false alarms (me thinking my water broke and it actually just being me peeing myself) and two weeks after my due date, I almost bleed to death on the delivery table. 

I'm pretty sure I saw that look in the doctors eyes through his glasses, while he took 45 min to stop the bleeding and take care of things down there. 

That look of.... 

Told ya so. 

Most parents talk about looking into their baby's eyes when they are placed on their chest and falling in love instantly. 

They put Mabel on my chest and I couldn't raise my arms to hold her. 

I looked at the nurse and asked her to take her, then closed my eyes and woke up the next day. 

I seriously don't remember the first 24 hours. 

I lost a LOT of blood. 

I was so weak I wasn't even allowed to lift Mabel out of the crib by myself. 

I had to ring the bell every time she cried so more often than not she was just in bed with me all the time. 

Finally after two blood transfusions I started to feel normal again and regain my strength. 

The whole time while I was lying in bed slowly dying, in crazy pain Mabel just sat and waited for me. She didn't even lose weight while we were in there. She rarely cried and was seriously the best baby ever. 

The first thing I said to her wasn't I love you, or Happy Birthday it was

"It's you and me against the world baby girl"

Now thankfully we have two more people in our corner. 

So today Mabel turns 4. Happy Birthday to my sassy little princess, whose favorite color is purple, favorite animal is a Zebra and favorite food is bacon. The little lady who loves to sing herself to sleep and can't wait to learn how to ride a bike. Who thinks the word eyeball is the funniest word in the world, and knows all the words to Wreaking ball. 

She told me this morning she's big enough now and I agree. 

Does anyone know how to slow this thing down??