Two days in a ROW

So I survived the run. 

I'm also still scared shitless of the run on Friday, but my current mindset is that I am going to fucking nail it, and if I don't, it's Friday so I can drink wine all night and try again Monday. 

I still don't understand how birthing a baby could make all my self believe disappear. 

I should be like I CAN DO ANYTHINGGGG. 

Instead I'm over here like, ummmm maybe I should start with a yog.

So have I told you guys about my goals yet?

I turn 30 next summer (womp womp) so I decided to set three big goals, and then times them BY THREE.

You know because 30… 3-0…3…. Anywho.

Goal number 1- Running

I am hoping to set some PR’s in a 5k a 10k, and a half

In all honestly this shouldn’t be that hard because I’m a slow slow slow runner and my current PR’s are nothing to write home about.

Goal number 2- Hiking

I want to complete three major peaks in New Hampshire.

We live in hiking country and I have like half a million to choose from so I should be taking advantage of them!

The only one I have set in stone so far is Mount Washington.

My friend’s recent pictures has put this loop on my maybe list!

Goal number 3- Running, Biking, Swimming

You know putting them all together and doing a fricking Triathlon!!! There are a few local ones so I just need to learn how to swim without plugging my nose and I should be good… maybe.

I’m hoping that having these big goals will help me to focus on something other than the scale, which I had my husband hide.

We have also started a daily challenge at work were we pick an exercise out of a box and do 100 throughout the day.  It’s been so swell.

Tomorrow is grocery shopping so I have protein bites and a breakfast casserole on the menu. 
AND just for good measure he's a picture of our best attempt at a family photo 

Running Hives

Hey friends!!
It's been so long I don't even know how to start anymore. Sooo.... how've you been? How are the kids? You look great? Oh this old thing? I've had it for yearsssss.
Lets talk about fitness.
Or lack there of.
I've started the Couch 2 5k program again and today I start week 5.
How is it that I used to run half marathons but the thought of running for 8 min this week is giving me hives...
I want to be back there.
I miss my long runs. I miss the mindless pace I hit when I run longer than 5 miles.
Even more so I miss my kid free timeeee.
Don't get me wrong I love my kids, but my son has recently learned all the words to The Little Einsteins theme song and I'm pretty sure listening to the same kid song can be used as a form of torture.
Okay rewind, I just looked and this Friday I am supposed to run TWENTY MINUTES.
What if I can't do it.
Ugh Ugh Ugh.
Whatever. I need to focus on today before I pee my pants about Friday.

Lets talk about food
and how I've been eating all of it.
Like everything, and anything. Nothing is safe.
I'm at my highest weight I have ever been in my life. I hate the way I look in pictures and I am trying very hard not to compare myself to where I was before I had Aggie, but we all know how that goes.

I'm tryinggg.
Okay I'm really not, I mean lets be honest with ourselves. If I was REALLY trying I would be SUCCEEDING right?

One week at a time. ONE WEEK AT A TIME.
I can finish these runs.
I can not buy Dunkin Donuts every morning.
I will wear my wedding ring again someday without getting it re-sized!!!

Wanna be a Blogger, Shot Caller.

Whoa. 

How do I even use this thing? 

It's been over a year since I blogged, and like that old friend, you lost touch with after babies and husbands and adulting, I miss it. 

On those Friday nights when I'm in bed at 8:45 wondering when my life turned into this circus, I miss it. 

I miss the accountability, the friends, the community. Everything! 

I'm sure there are a few readers still out there (Hi Caity!) but hopefully I can get this back on track. 

Maybe it'll be a reason to wake my ass up in the morning! 

In the meantime here's some photographic life updates for your viewing pleasures.

Let me know if your still out there!! Any good linkups still around?! 

The newest little addition Miss Agnes 

Oh those snapchat filters!! 

New work friends and wider face ☺️

Track the Tank Giveaway!

Hey everyone!!!! I know I have been super MIA, but I'm still alive, and hopefully I will be able to get back into blogging here soon.
I am posting today to tell you about an awesome giveaway, Tia from Hands on Pants Off and I started a million years ago that is finally happening now!
Track the Tank.

Tia and I along with a bunch of other really great bloggers took turns shipping a tank from Ruffles with Love to each other. When someone had it they signed it and posted about what motivated them.
Now you can enter to win the tank along with a gift card from Ruffles with Love.
The best part?
All the bloggers that joined in can win too!! All you have to do is enter below. You know the drill.

In the mean time I'm going to try a coffee this morning..... pray for me.


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I Used to be Cool, I Promise

I used to be cool. 

Like really cool. 

I used to be the one people asked what the plan was for tonight, on a Tuesday. 

I was a waitress in a bar and I was in college. All my friends were either bartenders or fellow waitresses 

Usually we loved each other until someone looked better than you and then you hated them.

Unless someone on the outside said the same and then there were your ride or die again. 

I partied all night and worked the next day, all while some how finding time to get a degree. 

I went on two week camping trips to see bands play all over New England. 

I up and moved to Italy for 5 months, just to come home and plan my next move to India.

The only thing I took care of was a hamster.

I purchased funnels at the hardware store and had no intention of changing my oil.

Hell I didn't even use my car! 

The only math I practiced was the tip on my bar tab, and balancing my checkbook was out of the question. 

Yes, at one point I was so cool. 

Today I go to bed at 9, the only time I stay up all night is when I'm cleaning up puke. 

The most recent crazy story involves a line similar to "my daughter said..." or "my son ate..."

I have to head home after work to finish sewing a pair of pants.

If I do go out I have an alarm on my phone set for bedtime so I don't miss the latest episode of Doc McStuffins, otherwise I will be so lost next week.

While tonight after work I wasn't invited out to the bar (I still love you guys, and don't worry I totally get it), my daughter looked me in the eyes tonight and said

" Mom I'm so happy you still wipe my butt because I'm just too lazy" 

Yeah I'm still cool. 

Big Fat Chicken

I'm supposed to be driving to New York City right now to attend Carrie Underwoods launch party for her new fitness line CALIA. 

Alas here I am sitting on the couch with my little man. 

There are so many reasons/excuses why I didn't go. 

It was totally out of my comfort zone 

It was a far drive

I would miss time with my family 

I didn't know what to wear

Pretty Little Liars is on

I gave myself so many excuses that I'm not even sure the actual reason I didn't go.

I decided last night and it's pure fate that I'm puking my cows out this morning (that's what Mabel says, no idea ) 

I would have loved to go. I think it's so important to get out of your comfort zone and do things that scare you. 

Apparently I just like saying it more than doing it. 

I have been slacking on working out lately  mostly because I can't stop feeling like I'm going to release the demons through my mouth at any moment. I know it's a valid reasons but I can't help but feel disappointed in myself. 

Maybe that's the biggest reason I didn't go. I don't feel the part. I don't feel like a cute fit pregnant woman. I feel like a whale who counts bathroom trips as workouts. 

My goal today is 30 min Body Pump.

It may not be meeting Carrie Underwood but it's more my speed today. 

Please tell me it's normal to not be running 30 miles a week right now! 

Quinoa Enchilada Casserole

This is super easy

Super yummy

And super filling.

Step one: brown one pound or so of turkey 

Add ingredients to crock pot

This recipie is very forgiving so I don't measure

Black beans 

Frozen corn

Diced peppers

Ground turkey

Enchilada seasoning 

Dry quinoa 

Salsa

Then you add one can of enchilada sauce and one cup water 

Stir well and cook on high for 2.5-3 hours or until the quinoa is a desired texture. 

You can add cheese when serving if you'd like. 

That's it!! Do you have a simple make ahead meal like this?